Things Lost and Found

There are many small things in our life which we do not care. Here by things, I mean physical things(not people or feelings). I have always been very choosy about the things I buy, whether it is a salwar suit or a hair clip. Plus, my demands for anything are too out of ordinary. Like for example, if I have to buy a dress, then it should not be complete red or black. It should not have laces or any other fancy substance hanging from anywhere. Don't want any stone work on it. I just want it to be plain and simple, but again not too simple. :P I know it's a bit odd and irritating but that's how I like things. Moreover, I want things which are very different from others. Like, I don't want that skinny pencil heel sandals or that body-sticking top worn on parties.

What I want to say is, when I buy things, I don't easily get them, but when I get something I start to like it very much. There was this hair clip I bought once and used it every time I went out because it was the best; but I never did realize that I'd miss it when it won't be there. I lost it during a trip and even after searching so many shops, I wasn't able to find it anywhere. I really missed that clip. I know it sounds funny because a simple hair-clip is not a thing to be missed, but I did. Every time i had to tie my hair, I thought about that clip and wished it hadn't lost. And I had given all hopes of finding similar clips, when yesterday suddenly I found that type of clip and I immediately bought it. I had gone with my didi to buy things for her and I luckily found that clip while browsing the store. And God, I was so happy. :) At last, something I was searching for so long.

Similar cases have happened earlier too. Not all things were found and recovered but instead new things were bought which also made me happy. There have also been times when I feel as if seeking for something is fruitless because I know there are absolutely no or very very bleak chances of getting them back. Like, there was this 2nd standard English Balbharti textbook. After loosing it, I now want it so much that earlier I used to say to my family that I'd marry any guy who brings me this book(not literally though :P), but just wanted to tell them how badly I wanted that book. I very well know there's nothing in that book, just some short stories and poems for grade 2 students, but I still want it. I tried searching it, but alas! :( To add to the agony, the syllabus have now changed. The English textbook now is not the one I had in my 2nd grade. :|

Things come, get lost, we feel sad, then new things come, we eventually forget the old things and life goes on like this. Same with people, especially friends. Each phase of life, you get new friends. When a phase is over, the friends become distant too, and we are left with just their memories. :( Some friends remain for lifetime though, and I'm happy and blessed to have Lifetime friends. :)

P.S. - Sorry for writing a haphazard post. Will improve in time. :)

Thursday Challenge - TWO

The Not-So-Great Return!

Hello everyone! :) Firstly, I apologize to all my readers for being away for so long.

Many reasons which I'm feeling too lazy to recall and mention for the long desertion. Plus, during this time, I've become more lazy than I already was and my sleeping hours have increased considerably. Although, I very much love sleeping, but when you have nothing to do except sleep, you start getting bored of it. Tell you the details later in the next post.

As for now, I hope to return to blogging just like before. I really missed the space here.

Till then, and A Very Happy New Year 2012. :D :party

Hope you all have a wonderful time. :D

Speak Up!

I've always been a complicated personality from close. From afar I may seem as every other normal girl laughing and .. laughing only(because that's only the thing I do :P).

Among other complications, my one problem is that I don't speak up to the people things that are going on in my mind which are concerned with them. These things actually make me a slave of anger and self-frustration.

If any of my friends are doing something wrong that I do not approve of, then I get angry by myself thinking that why in the world are they doing this, but I do not say anything to them about it.
Then again if I expect a few things from my friends(now I don't but I do hope for them) and they are not fulfilled then again I go into my weirdo mode.
While all this is happening, I do not actually say anything to them but I do show full signs which clearly indicate that I am disappointed or angry(in most cases) with them. My friends obviously are not so dumb that they won't catch the signs and then then do ask me if anything's wrong with me or anything they did to make me act that way. And to this I say a flat 'NO', saying that they haven't done anything wrong and it's not their fault.
Also the times I think that things are not going to change I do not say anything.
I wanted that or hoped that they'd understand. But after doing some self-psychoanalysis I came to the conclusion that whatever I wanted or was hoping for actually has no sense in itself.

You know, all this time all I did was keep mum every time such a situation occurred, leading both the parties in a state of misery. On one hand people are confused as to what they did wrong and thinking of possibilities for my abnormal behavior and on the other hand I am there, cursing myself as to why I didn't say anything to them and why won't they understand such a simple thing.

But as I said, it's not actually very complicated. It was me all the time that made it complicated and miserable for them as well as for me. I figured out that just saying things that are in your mind to the people concerned helps a lot. It might be the case that people think they have done nothing wrong. There may also be possibilities that even after saying things your friends take them lightly. But, the main thing here is first actually saying things that are in your mind. People won't understand things or your feelings unless you actually tell them. Just tell them clearly that you do not like some things in them and may be they'll change for the good. I am not saying that you go on telling people that you expect 'this or that' from them but then if at certain point your expectations are not fulfilled and you act the way I did, after people ask you what's wrong, tell them what is actually the reason for your sadness+anger.

Saying and clearing out a few things can actually make life simpler, rather than keeping it with yourself and I realized that not so long ago and I am happy that at least I figured out that I was wrong with something! :D

Unanswered Feelings

Life can sure be cruel at times. As the human nature goes, it always wants more; more of everything.
One such greediness of the human nature is of to be liked and loved by more and more people. Also, a person always wants to be in the priority list of the person who is in his/her priority list.

But there are certain times when your feelings are not answered. You may love and respect a person very much but there is no guarantee that the person loves you back.
Sometimes, even when we know that we are not as important to a person as he/she is to us, even then we choose to be by their side and also end up getting hurt.

On the other hand, there are people who like and love you dearly, but you don't have the same feelings for them. You very well know that they will give you all the happiness you need but even then you run after the people who you treat as a priority not after the ones who treats you as their priority!

I always wondered why the human nature is so? Even after getting hurt, we still long for those people who hurt us rather than staying up with the people who love us, who treats us more nicely!

For me these are the "Unanswered Feelings." It's good if they are answered though. But I highly doubt they do! Have you ever been in a similar situation?

PS: I am not sure if this holds true for everyone. This is all my personal thinking and analysis. And I really don't know why I am even writing this post! :f

The Big Fool's Day!

April the 1st

The first of April, some do say, April The 1st
Is set apart for All Fools' Day.
But why the people call it so,
Nor I, nor they themselves do know.
But on this day are people sent
On purpose for pure merriment.
-- Poor Robin's Almanac (1790)

The fool doth think he is wise, but the wise man knows
himself to be a fool.
Shakespeare - As You Like It (Act V, Scene I)

You all must have guessed by the title itself what the rest of the post has to say to you.
This year no one fooled me neither did I go into great lengths of stressing my mind and creating ideas to fool anybody!

When I was a kid I never knew that April fool's was an international event. I thought that it's some Indian tradition or something like that. And I don't remember any April fool that was memorable enough except for one when I was in fifth grade.
I wikied 'April Fool's Day' but my poor brain refused to grab anything from it! :P

Not to mention on every April Fool's day Google comes up with something weird and this time too it came up with this 'Gmail-Motion' which lets you interact with gmail using some funny and stupid body gestures! To be honest my eyes never sway to any other part of the page except for the two blank boxes. I wouldn't have knwn about this Google-Motion hadn't it been for VoiCE(Official blog of Crazy Engineers). Read the article. It's really funny!

Anyway, I do not think there's much I can write about this day since I have no good-bitter memories of it. Share your memories of the All-Fools Day as it is also called if you have any!

Ciao! ;)